I went through my pictures last night when Kimoko ask me about a picture of me and my bf.
Rummaging through, I found nothing much.
I only have like not more than 10 pictures of us together. =_= *and we have been together for like… quite a long… long… long… time?*
Anyway.
I am not to talk about us.
I am so gonna post a really UGLY picture of me. As if the now me is not ugly enough. Bah.
Just to show you how I look like in August 2008.
wtf.
excuse my manners. it’s so horrifying to look at it myself now and why did I even bother to post it up?
LOL.
Maybe it’s my way of saying…
Look, honey! I’ve gotten smaller!
Aug 31 2008
Can you scream OH-MY-GOD!
Bad hair, UBER ROUND FACE which I don’t think a chin ever existed on my face and uh, small small eyes? And bushy bushy brows!
God. What was I thinking?
April 20 2009
And I just took this picture, the moment I got home.
Chin is slightly sharper. Eyes uneven (I can’t help it!), trimmed brows. And pretty much nothing else changed.
And no photoshop-ping involved. And no makeup, I mean no contouring involved. I am dead serious.
Just so you know, I’m feeling rather comfy in my own body at the moment, that’s why the post. I never was perfect and stick thin so I know how is it like to be part of the so call unpopular ones (the bigger size/ not so pretty looking/ not so smart etc etc etc), not to say that I am part of the ‘popular ones’ now, but by accepting myself, I am a little happier and in fact, people are much more at ease with me and my attitude. LOL.
I might take this post down anytime, depending on the mood and of course, my comfy-ness with my big body. :p So uh, if you wanna comment, just leave one. You can email me too if you think your comment will be freaking rude or bad, but it doesn’t mean I will and definitely will reply to you.
Life’s good, if you want it to be good. 
p/s: you can always go to my FOTDs to see how I look like. And yes, not as rounded as before. Thanks heavens!
p/ps: i’m lucky to have the bf who did not ditch me even when i was at my ugliest looking time, well, i might be the ugliest looking woman on earth for my entire life, but he stuck with me through it all. that i am thankful. though i’ll never tell him. he gets big headed. hohohoho.
bravo! you were beautiful then! No you don’t look horrible at all, yes you’ve lost a lot of weight but hey, you still have the face! I want to congratulate you for losing the weight and wanting to be healthy. I was the same as you I was super heavy when I was working in China due to weather changes and homesickness, and the BF now Hubby still loves me no matter how I look, heheh that’s TRUE LOVE
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plue Reply:
April 22nd, 2009 at 10:03 pm
Nikki: You are a lucky woman!!! I don’t think I can sacrifice health just because I want to fit in some mould. Yeah, maybe 5 years back I would, but not now. Grown up a little I think.
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Ahahahahaa… the last 3 lines made me loled!! XD XD
Way to go Plue!! Ultimately we are our worst critics. So as long as we’re comfortable with ourselves, don’t let anybody convince ourselves otherwise!!
ps: i want to lose weight too… i’m so horribly pear shaped now!! >.<
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plue Reply:
April 22nd, 2009 at 10:01 pm
Lynn: thanks girl. i think if you love urself, ppl will love you too. it’s a cycle.
fats and curves, flat and thin, people are just so weird!
jenn: he saw it, and hmph me all the way. i am a pear shaped too!!! haiz. dumb thighs, tummy and butt!
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girl.
you are beautiful.
and you’re beauty will never fade in time.
even when i havn’t known you very personally
i can sense you are such a nice person.
nobody is perfect and we can just keep giving ourselves negative thoughts.
i have fugly legs.
others have problematic skin with acne and no cure.
some are thin. but then they are called flat.
when they have curves, we call them fat?
people nowadays.
im taking psychology now and guess what.
we were asked to think what motivates us to do what we do.
and not surprisingly we all put our value in order to satisfy what others might think of us.
apparently, what matters most is for us to motivate from our inner self.
and girl.
YOU’VE DONE IT!
PROUD OF YOU!
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I gotta agree with Nikki, you were beautiful
And now that you’ve gotten healthier, you look even more gorgeous 
! Glad that you’re happy with your own body now as that is the thing which is more important.
I’m happy I took the chance to be more fit without losing my curves. You don’t have to be stick thin to be popular, besides a real women is supposed to have curves 
As long as you love the body your mum gives you, that’s what matters. Again, congratulations to you 
P.S. I was in the same state too around early september last year
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Honey, you are beautiful. Don’t ever let anyone tell you otherwise. lol. I agree, that we are our worst critics, no matter how good we really look, we’ll always find something which we don’t really like.
I wasn’t in the popular, pretty group either when I was in my early teens, in fact some of those people said that I’ll probably never find someone to spend the rest of my life with. But when I slowly accepted myself, I find myself being surrounded with people who never bothered how I look, but love being with me, because I’m me.
Got interested in makeup, love experimenting with them. I cannot say that I look good now. lol. but definitely much better than before, with my acne cleared up, trimmed/shaped eyebrows, tamer-looking hair, contacts. And a hubby who loves me even when my skin was going through bad patches, (hell, he kicks up a huge fuss everytime I play with new makeup/skincare and my skin starts breaking out due to it, but still indulges in me in the end).
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plue Reply:
April 22nd, 2009 at 9:58 pm
renz: you are one lucky woman! i guess, by accepting who you are, life’s much easier don’t you think? And of course, happier too! and yes, i got those bad comments like you had before
bummers.
a womam with curves! yes! we should embrace them, but I don’t want the extras, can? 
shuu: thank you!
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You look pretty in both photos cause you’re all smiley.
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plue Reply:
April 22nd, 2009 at 9:55 pm
meizi: thank you!
lisa: thanks!
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i think you were pretty! just cause you arent into what u used to be isnt a bad thing.
yeah we are reallly hard on our selves. its okay babe!!!!
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Hey Plue! You are a pretty girl!! I used to have super round faces, thick plastic rim glasses, chubby everywhere too!! Hehehe.
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plue Reply:
April 22nd, 2009 at 9:55 pm
hehehunter: not leng lui la…
pretty: same lor. fats = my best hated pal. lol.
fuz: i can’t imagine you having a round face with chubbiness everywhere! you are gorgeous right now!
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nice!
i guess fats are also my best friend for life. just cnt seem to shake it off! gosh. but heck! yeay for loving ourselves!
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Jie jie too leng lui jor.
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I think you don’t need us to sing Christina A’s – Beautiful song la. But from the pics, you change a lot!
But don’t worry, sometimes change is good as long as we still love who we are right! 
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plue Reply:
April 22nd, 2009 at 9:52 pm
Irene: Yay for being comfy in our own body! I never use sunblock during my teens, but I never use Dettol to wash my face either
I guess if we have no one to guide us, everything’s pretty messy~
Nicki: Thank you! I do have the occasional pimple though~ Tee hee!
Sue: I guess if the change is for the better, then why not?
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Well, I was skinny flat-chested + flat-assed, wide shoulder, and elbows that sticks out like a tree branch with super short hair in high school. Wait, I wasn’t a girl, I was a tomboy. Annnddd…. acne hit me pretty badly when i was 15. Fast-forward 5 years and I’ve gained weight (and chest
) and look more wholesome. Pity I’ve gained a bit of tummy fat too but like you… I am feeling comfortable of my appearance now compared to when i was a teem. Then again I never comb my hair when I was a teen and use Dettol soap to clean my face lol. 
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lol plue. yes, everything in moderation, no?
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plue Reply:
April 27th, 2009 at 9:04 pm
Shuu: Oh yes, definitely!
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